Stressed

After getting through a couple of extremely stressful weeks (and dealing with a day from hell), I’m ready to kickoff February and welcome it with open arms. Already a month into the new year and I’m in need of a fresh start. How could that have happened so soon, you ask…well, it’s the stress, I tell you. The damn stress.

How can I explain the stress of the last few weeks? I don’t even know where to start. The stress has been weighing on me and keeping me up at night. I don’t think I’ve been able to get a full night’s sleep in the past few weeks. I would find that after I go to bed, I would sleep a couple of restless hours, be jolted awake by random thoughts and nightmares, and then spend another few hours tossing and turning just waiting anxiously for morning to come around…so I could at least go about my day and leave behind the darkness of the night. Short of taking my go-to sleep aid…those perfectly blessed sleeping pills I keep handy for emergencies…I have been unable to shut off my overactive brain to get some much needed rest.

After all the de-stressing mechanisms that I have learned and tried to employ…it’s frustrating to know that…sometimes it just isn’t enough to overcome all the stress when it hits me all at once. Trust me, today alone has tested my resolve...let’s not even talk about the last few weeks. Ugh. Keeping stress at a manageable level is definitely something that I’ve always been working on (you know, because stress is always part of life). And now, I want to believe that when everything blows up in my face all at once, I will be able to deal with it…because if not, it’ll totally knock me on my ass.

C'est la vie.

Super Bowl XLIV

Did anyone see the game last night? Anyone? Well, it’s the Colts vs. the Saints in the Super Bowl. Phew. After the games yesterday, I was breathing a huge sigh of relief. I would’ve liked to think I would have be more surprised at the outcome of both games…but since I called this match-up more than a month ago…and bet on it…with more than a few people, I would like to think that this had a good shot of happening anyway. I mean, to say that I have a lot riding on the Super Bowl, is the biggest understatement of the year (I know the year is just beginning, but hey, you get my point).

The Colts had no problem getting it done. I knew they’d be ok. But the Saints? I was a little worried. The game was too close for my liking. With all the turnovers by the Vikings, the Saints should’ve killed ‘em. And why the Saints even tried to run the ball towards the end of the game was beyond me, their running game sucked…almost looked as good as the Niners. Ha! With under two minutes left in the game and the Vikings on their drive down the field…I was getting anxious and really, really nervous. I mean, damn, Farve should've been down for the count considering how many times he was clocked. So when he threw that last interception to send the game into overtime, I was jumping up and down like a crazy person. Hell yeah! Farve may be the oldest douche bag still playing football, but the game was close enough that he still had me worried.

So in case anyone has forgotten (although, I don't think anyone could forget considering how much trash I've been talking), let me remind you all that I called the Colts and the Saints in the Super Bowl quite awhile back. Go Saints!...Sorry, Peyton, you know you still rock and I still love you, but I had to go with my man Brees this time. No hard feelings ok? ;-)

Bad Weather

I know we need the rain.

But the rain and bad weather is depressing me.

Spring can’t come soon enough.

Happy Birthday Blog

I’m celebrating a birthday today. Today my blog is officially 5 years old. I thought I should commemorate this blessed occasion by paying homage to its great existence. Ha! Can you believe it? I’ve been blogging for 5 years.

When I started this blog, I didn’t have any expectations or know what purpose this would come to serve (if any). And now, I look back on it and it’s definitely been quite a journey. This blog has been one of the few consistencies that I have maintained over the past 5 years and it has served as a very interesting reflection of my life (maybe not necessarily a true reflection at times…but a reflection nonetheless). And to be honest, I don’t know if I would recognize myself 5 years ago…reading some of my older posts, I’m not sure that I would. As for today, I’m surprised that I have allowed this blog to last this long.

During one of my early postings, I remember having some concerns about blogging. I didn’t know how long I’d keep my blog going, what I’d find interesting enough to blog about, or whether I would come to regret anything that I would put into my posts. And as it turns out, I’m glad that I’ve put the time and effort into my blog. Mostly, I haven’t had any problems coming up with topics that I’ve wanted to blog about…whether these topics can be classified as “interesting” or not now, I can’t really say (I’m sure they seemed interesting at the time). But I can say that I don’t regret anything that I’ve put into my blog. However, as I read back on some of my older posts, I have to resist the temptation to update, edit, or delete some of them entirely. Fortunately, I have left them all unedited and unchanged…typos, ideological shifts, and personal details among them. I figure I would let them serve as a reflection of me once upon a time.

As most of you know, I’ve only had 3 simple rules when it comes to my blog…I don’t blog about anything too personal, I don’t blog about work, and I don’t name names. Other than that, it’s all fair game and open for discussion. Granted, even then, most topics I choose to blog about are quite tame. But bottom line, I think one of the main reasons why I still blog is because this blog has always been for me. Sure, people can check up on me, read my posts, and send me their random comments, but I haven’t put in any extra work on this blog for anyone else (sorry to my loyal readers) because it’s always been just for me. And that, ladies and gentlemen, is what makes it that much more satisfying in the end. :-)

But for those of you who have chosen to join (and follow) me on my blogging adventures these past 5 years…don’t think I don’t appreciate you! It has been quite an interesting ride and transition. Here’s to see what else lies ahead…

New Year

It’s a brand new year and a brand new me. Haha. Wow…I just snickered at that.

It’s a brand new year and time for a fresh start and a clean slate…and you know what? It’s probably just what everyone needs. That’s the beauty of a new year. So after a very busy, but relaxing, holiday and new year, it’s definitely time to get back to the daily grind (sorry I wasn’t able to post any holiday pictures…I got too lazy and distracted. And hello…I need my camera back at some point please).

Since I’ve been so busy with the holidays and new years stuff, I’ve been out of touch and preoccupied lately. So…what’s been going on with everyone? What did I miss? Let’s all catch up. And for all you fools who have been emailing and bugging me about blogging more…you can all suck it. My blog is not intended to add extra work or stress to my already busy and stressful life…so enough with the emails already.

Too bad I don’t have anything interesting to share with everyone. So…happy new year.