Relatively Better

After a seemingly long week, I’m doing…relatively better. Granted, family stuff is starting to weigh me down, my friends are trying overly hard to make me feel better, and work is kicking my ass…but other than that…things are relatively ok. And it's about time I snap out of it and get back into the swing of things anyway. I mean, I’m, hopefully, looking at a short week at work, a nice relaxing weekend, and then a trip to New Orleans next week. So…I’m doing better.

Returning to work last week was mildly torturous. Not only was I unable to sleep (without having the darkest and scariest dreams I’ve ever had, but also finding myself tossing and turning feeling extremely anxious and restless), but my appetite was completely nonexistent. Can you believe I just said that? Me, the lover of all foods, couldn’t bring myself to eat? It was sad, but, very true. I couldn’t even get myself to eat sushi…much less any other type of food. And you know it’s bad if I can’t even eat sushi. Yeah, emotional heartache is the best diet I’ve ever known. :-(

But, like I said, I’m doing better. I’m looking forward to returning to the land of the living again. After spending so much time watching dvds and listening to music to drown away my sorrows, I regretfully admit that I'm a hopeless romantic at heart. I'm a sucker for fairy tales and I love happy endings. I know, I know, it's so unlike me. But, alas, it's true. I digress, I can complain/talk about this some other time. Anyway, since I can now bring myself to eat, I don’t have to lock myself in my cube and my apartment avoiding all other life forms…which will be nice. My portion sizes still aren’t what they used to be…but hey, at least I’m eating now. Also, I’m definitely less emotional this week than I was last week. You couldn’t imagine the looks that I got last week…I was definitely not feeling up to being around and talking to people, and I don’t think I hid my feelings very well. Haha. I gotta work on that.