Pissed

With my mini-vacation cancelled, work stresses affecting my psyche, and a long sleepless night behind me…what am I to do? I find myself sitting in front of my computer feeling the complete opposite than I had when I blogged less than 24 hours ago. My optimism is gone, my excitement is gone…and my sanity will probably be the next to go.

Without getting into too much detail, I will just say this…after spending a lot of time looking forward to a vacation and some time away from work and the Bay Area, I find myself royally pissed off, extremely irritated, and majorly disappointed. I mean, I should be sitting on a plane right now!!! But instead, I find myself trying to make the best out of a situation that I didn't create for myself, trying to keep my spirits up even though I'm feeling totally rejected, and trying to come to terms with a decision that was taken out of my hands and made for me. To compound matters, there isn't a damn thing I can do to change the situation and make things better.

Since I refuse to use my vacation time mopping around and doing nothing super exciting…I’m using my day off today to try to get myself out of this rut and ready to return to work tomorrow. Lovely.