Pure Hell

Yeah, I’m not having a great week (to say the very least…as you can tell since I’m blogging for the third time in a week)…this week has been pure hell, and the worst part is it’s only Wednesday. With the way my luck is going, I shouldn’t be too surprised if I get struck by lightning tomorrow. That might be a blessing in disguise actually. :-/

I spent another sleepless night tossing and turning trying to figure out how things could have changed so dramatically in 48 hours. What happened? How did I end up in this place, feeling this bad? And more importantly, where do I go from here? I swear that I’ve felt pain before, I know everyone has, but damnit…this sucks because I don’t remember it ever feeling this bad. I’m still feeling a lot of the same feelings that I was yesterday…but only ten times worse. Throw in a pinch of rejection, a teaspoon of frustration, a tablespoon of confusion, and a cup of hurt…and I got myself a smorgasbord of emotions running through me right now. *sigh* What do I do? What can I do? Just please, make the pain stop and go away.

Since my vacation time from work is still in effect (and I’m totally not ready to return to work), I’m hoping I can get myself back under control and ready to face the world. I will be ok. I need to be ok. I have to be ok.