Just Get Mad

I’m in a weird predicament right now. I find myself (honestly) starting to feel a lot better about things…and the only reason…is because I’m finally allowing myself to just be mad. And you know what, I’m mad…honestly, deep down, angry, upset, and just downright pissed. I know, I know, this makes no sense to you because being mad really doesn’t accomplish anything, but oh man…lately, it has been working wonders for my psyche.

I’m not going to go into the details about all this, but let me just say that it’s a very therapeutic feeling. Normally, I don’t condone getting mad, staying mad, or justify being mad (because it really doesn’t solve anything and just serves to eat me up inside)…but you know what? In this particular instance, it really seems to be working for me. Being mad has finally provided me the opportunity to work through everything and put things in perspective. And, better yet, the situation has benefited quite a bit from me just allowing myself to be mad without fighting it. My whole outlook on the situation has changed and things are finally much easier to deal with. And now (as strange as it might sound), I feel like I’m on the road to being in a much better place within myself because of it.

I know I’m talking in circles, but I just need to put this out there right now. I know I can’t, and shouldn’t, stay mad forever…and eventually I will work through it and it will pass and leave me in peace. But for now, fuck it. And better yet (if you’re reading this) fuck you.