Fighting Temptation

I have my reasons for not being on Facebook. However, everyone and their mother is on Facebook. And I've never been bothered or more tempted to join Facebook...until now.

Let me lay out the short story for you. Girl is with boy. Girl is not on Facebook. Boy is on Facebook. Boy and his friends make comments about boy's wall on Facebook. Girl is curious (and, to be honest, somewhat jealous) of boy on Facebook. Girl fights temptation to join Facebook to look at boy's wall and friends. Boy reassures girl that his Facebook profile/friends/posts are nothing to be worried about. Girl is at a decision impasse...

I never thought I'd ever be one of those crazy jealous girls who would actually give a second thought about anything that is on Facebook…or anything juvenile like that. I never have before. And you know what? I hate that it's getting to me. I hate that I'm letting it get to me. And I hate that I'm even toying with the idea of even joining Facebook to check up on a dude. Because hello?!?! I never, ever, want to do anything just for a guy. You all have my permission to beat the shit out of me if that ever happens. Seriously, beat me to a pulp.

I mean, I want to trust him...and I do trust him. But it doesn't keep me from being curious...and (hey, as hard as it is, I admit it) jealous. As some of you have told me, joining Facebook would allow me to join the land of the living (yes, I know) and put my fears about him to rest. But on the other hand, is that really the best thing to do? Joining would be giving into an insecurity...giving into something that I've held out for for so long...and I wouldn't be joining for me...but because of him. How horrible would that be? I know, I know…you don’t have to give me that look.

So...I'm holding out and fighting the temptation. I'm having faith and I'm gonna trust. Even if it does kill me.