A Hard Time

These feelings churning inside me
I don't know if I can explain.
It feels similar to an ulcer
And causes me nothing but unbearable pain.

I wish there was something I could do
To make this ache disappear.
Continuing to have this inside me
Is my worst and biggest fear.

It consumes my thoughts
When I lay in bed at night.
I go over and over the details
Until I feel like I have it right.

I wake up in the morning
Feeling ready to start my day.
But I realize things aren’t better
And there’s nothing more that I can say.

I need time to work on things
And get my head on straight.
It’s really not good for me
To be consumed with feelings of hate.

I’ve had a hard couple of weeks
Dealing with some personal stuff.
I don’t know how to describe it
But it has just been really tough.

I wish I could talk to someone
Who might be able to help me.
And get me back to the person
I know I need to be.

There’s this feeling I’m missing
And I don’t know how to get it back.
But I don’t know what I can do
To get my mind back on track.

I hope I can start feeling better
And I can shake this feeling for good.
It would be nice to get back to normal
The way I know I probably should.

I miss feeling really happy
And knowing things are going to be alright.
So I’m left with nothing but my feelings
And channeling my emotions as I sit here and write.